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  The Astronaut's Wife

  Robert Tine

  Novelization of a 1999 film starring Johnny Depp and Charlize Theron.

  In this relentlessly gripping psychological thriller, Johnny Depp plays Spencer Armacost, an astronaut sent on a space shuttle mission with his partner, Captain Alex Streck. While in space, an accident occurs that cuts all contact between the men and earth for two minutes. Both men return from the trip with no memory of those crucial minutes, and soon thereafter Streck mysteriously dies. Little by little, Spencer’s wife Jillian, pregnant with twins, begins to suspect that something happened on the mission during those two minutes...something that changed Spencer into something other than the man she loves...something that might mean the end of us all...

  The Astronaut’s Wife

  by Robert Tine

  There were times when Jillian Armacost felt as if she didn’t have a life—not a real one. It was more that she and her husband were controlled by, and were wholly owned subsidiaries of, a government agency. In this case it was the one that one Americans seemed to love and trust above all others: the National Aeronautics and Space Administration— NASA—that crew-cut, square-jawed, can-do, Houston-we-have-a-problem organization. Of all the government offspring that Americans mistrusted, they mistrusted NASA the least.

  And it took a lot of work to win that trust. If NASA was an old-fashioned movie studio, then the astronauts were the stars, their wives the contract players. Each of them was bound by ironclad contracts—contracts that put the interest of NASA ahead of anything else. On the face of things, this was the case—at least, it was certainly the case with the astronauts themselves. They had worked hard to get to where they were, climbing the steep and slippery military ladder as fliers for the Marine Corps, the United States Navy, and the U.S. Air Force. To have achieved flight status for NASA put you at the top of the heap; it marked you as the best, not just in the armed forces of the United States of America, but as the best in the world. And this crop of fliers was said to be the best ever.

  Spencer Armacost was part of this and, on the face of things, his wife Jillian imagined that he gave himself over to the spirit of NASA completely. But sometimes she caught a look in his eyes, a slight frown, a tiny gesture that suggested that sometimes he hadn’t quite been able to bring himself to buy the whole NASA story. They were married, they were exceptionally close. But she could never bring herself to ask Spencer about it. It would have been too much like treason. Fred Astaire was singing about trouble coming.

  All this is not to suggest that Spencer Armacost was your typical bleeding-NASA-blue flier. He knew enough to know a stupid order when he heard One, he knew that NASA was more than likely to make a mistake—.and he knew it long before the Challenger disaster claimed the lives of six astronauts and the civilian Christa McAuliffe.

  Fred Astaire continued, singing about moonlight and love.

  Spencer was a thoughtful, well-read man with a passion for flying. He was also the only member of the next shuttle mission who knew anything at all about the career of Fred Astaire—a fact which set him well apart from his fellow fliers who tended to have more red-meat tastes in movies. If they ever saw movies at all, that is.

  Fred Astaire was concluding: the only thing to do was dance.

  Jillian and Spencer were sprawled in their big bed and you could read the history of that short evening in the archeology of the debris spread around them. On the floor, at the base of the bed was an empty bottle of pinot noir and two stemmed glasses, both drained to the dregs. Next to them were some simple white-and-blue pasta bowls, a few strands of spaghettini nestled in a pool of sauce at the bottom. Closer to the bed was a pair of men’s pants, bunched and snarled as if they had been hastily kicked off; nearby, as light as a small sheet of gossamer, a pair of pearl-colored women’s panties.

  The languor of the couple in their bed, their limbs intertwined, told the rest of the story. Their eyes were soft and tired as they watched the movie, their faces lit by the flickering of the television set, the black-and-white movie washing their skin a pale blue. And they stared at it fixedly, as if as long as the movie ran they could keep the real world at bay for a few more moments.

  Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers danced a vigorous pas de deux on the deck of a Hollywood-class battleship as chorus boys dressed as grizzled old salts danced behind them.

  Spencer shifted slightly but kept his eyes on the television set. “You know,” he said, “this flies in the face of everything I know about the United States Navy…”

  His wife smiled and ran her fingers through his hair. “Is that so? Too bad you didn’t join up.”

  Spencer stretched. “Well, this was made in 1936 or ’37—before the big build up for the Second World War. I guess the Navy was just different back then.”

  “I guess everything changed after Pearl Harbor,” Jillian said, laying back on her pillow. “There’s nothing like a sneak attack from a hostile foreign power to ruin a good fleet song-and-dance routine. Wouldn’t you say?”

  “Uh-huh.” But it seemed that her husband had lost interest in the joke. His eyes were locked on the screen of the television set with more intensity than a light bit of fluff musical like the Astaire-Rogers musical Follow the Fleet would seem to require. It was as if he was hearing the music and the words, seeing the images for the first time and was completely enchanted by them.

  Jillian, by contrast, looked less than pleased. “I hate this part,” she said.

  Spencer looked away from the television screen long enough to shoot a quick glance at his wife. Then his eyes flicked back to the screen. The whole gesture had taken no more than a split second. “This part?” he said. “This part is the best part…” He added his own voice to Fred Astaire’s, matching him word for word, phrase for phrase.

  Jillian put out a soft hand and touched his face, turning him to face her. She looked him in the eye. “No,” she said softly. “That’s not what I mean… It’s this part”—she gestured weakly with her hands as if encompassing the entire room— “this part right now. The part right before you leave. I know you’re still here but I know you are leaving, too. I hate this…”

  Spencer leaned over and kissed his wife softly on the forehead. “I’ll call you.”

  Jillian half smiled and slapped at him weakly. “Don’t you dare tease me, Spencer Armacost.’”

  It stood between them like an unbridgeable moat—the mission, Spencer’s next foray into space in the space shuttle Victory, the latest and most technologically advanced spacecraft in history. On one hand, on a rational level, Jillian could understand the importance of the Victory missions in the professional and even the spiritual life of her husband. To be a crew member of the space shuttle was considered the absolute epitome of a military flier’s career.

  Spencer Armacost had attained these lofty heights by dint of hard work and innate exceptional skill; he was the first to acknowledge, however, that his climb to the top had been facilitated by the deft diplomacy of his beautiful and thoughtful wife. Skill counted for a large part of the equation that added up to a shuttle pilot, but the right wife—the kind of wife who could charm a strategically placed general or thaw the purse strings gripped in the hands of a doubting senator——did not hurt.

  The object of the game was to get Spencer a place on the shuttle crew and Jillian Armacost had worked assiduously to see that he got it. But once the goal had been achieved, she found that the slightest bud of resentment had taken root somewhere deep inside her…

  To the average American television viewer, watching a three-second clip of a shuttle launch— usually the seventh or eighth item on the evening news—these expensive excursions into space had gotten to be rather routine. The layman had little un
derstanding or interest in just what went on up there, but the missions, which always seemed to have something to do with satellites, were generally judged to be Good Things For America: it was prestigious and, it was said, those satellites did everything from improving television reception to giving the United States a series of all-seeing eyes high above the earth.

  But there was another side to these missions that the man or woman in the street never heard about, probably never even considered. There was a spiritual side to these immense journeys, an otherworldliness as hallowed as any Christian pilgrimage or Muslim hadj. The men who went out there, beyond the very confines of the earth, were forever marked by the experience. So few people had actually undergone the process, the shared pool of firsthand knowledge was so tiny, that no one who had not actually done it could possibly understand the significance, could ever appreciate the experience.

  And so it was for Jillian and Spencer Armacost. She dutifully sent her husband off to space—a place she could never follow—and when he returned he was still her husband. But he was always slightly different, as if he knew secrets now—secrets he could never share with her or with, any of the uninitiated. It was a tiny, small brother-and sisterhood, one which excluded the vast majority of the population. A Russian cosmonaut, grimy and exhausted after six long months on the Russian space station Mir had more in common with Spencer Armacost than Jillian could ever hope to have.

  These complex feelings she rendered down to their most simple parts. “I miss you so much when you’re gone,” Jillian said with a sigh. “It’s horrible. I never get a full night’s sleep.”

  Spencer nodded and mussed her short blond hair. “I miss you, too, Jill. Last time we were up, Streck said that if I bellyached about you one more minute, he was going to toss my ass off the ship.” Spencer smiled crookedly. “I don’t think he would really have done it… Someone would be bound to notice that I went up but somehow failed to make the trip down.”

  Jillian harrumphed. “You can tell Streck that your ass is mine and he can keep his hands off it, thank you very much.”

  “Aye, aye, ma’am. Understood,” said Spencer briskly. “I will see to it that the commander is given the orders as to the disposition of my ass post haste, ma’am.”

  Alex Streck was Spencer’s immediate superior and mission commander. Both he and his wife Natalie were good friends of the Armacosts, despite slight differences in age and the subtle distinctions of rank.

  “Good,” said Jillian with a little laugh. She snuggled in closer, burrowing under his arm and pushing up against his body, as if to absorb warmth from it. “My class wants you to come in when you get back. I think they only tolerate me to get to you.” Jillian Armacost was being unduly modest. She was a wildly popular second grade teacher at a local Florida elementary school. Though she did have to admit that having a husband who was an astronaut with flight status probably gave her a little edge when it came to engaging her boisterous and rambunctious pack of second graders.

  Spencer stretched in the bed. “I might be able to arrange a visit,” he said cagily, like a gambler trying to make the most of a less than perfect hand. “It’ll take a little bit of doing, though,” he added.

  “What will it take?” Jillian asked.

  “Well, it wouldn’t hurt for you to be a little nice to me,” said Spencer, smiling.

  “How nice?” Jillian asked, as if weighing her chips before she bet anything.

  “Oh, you know,” said Spencer airily. “You know me… I’m just an old married man, a little kindness goes quite a long way with an old coot like me.”

  Jillian brushed her lips against his and reached down under the sheet, her hand closing around what she discovered there. Jillian’s eyes went wide, as if she were the virginal heroine of a nineteenth century novel.

  ‘Why, Mr. Armacost, whatever do you have there?”

  Spencer said through a stiff upper lip, “Why, Mrs. Armeacost, whatever do you mean?”

  As they melted into each other’s arms, Fred Astaire’s singing of music and dance provided the only possible answer.

  1

  The firm and authoritative voice came through a crackling cloud of static.

  “Victory, we are at T-minus thirty-one seconds, your onboard computers are functioning. Start auto sequence.”

  Mission Control was talking to the space shuffle Victory. The great pile of vehicle was standing straight up on the launch pad, ready to blast off and head for space. The whole machine was made up of several components: the familiar and elegant winged orbiter, two solid rocket boosters, and a giant external tank.

  Despite all the talk about onboard computers, for the next few minutes the Victory would be dealing with a technology as complicated as an ordinary bottle rocket. Spencer and Alex Streck and the rest of the crew were strapped into the orbiter fifteen stories above the ground, the larger portion of which was stuffed with hundred of tons of volatile fuel. In a moment or two, someone would set fire to it and they would be on their way.

  The voice of Mission Control seemed to pervade the very air of the Cape. Jillian Armacost had been through it so many times she could imagine every order, every check, every response as they went over the air between Mission Control and the shut-de itself.

  Jillian stood at the open French windows of her house. Far on the horizon, thrusting up into the blue of a Florida morning sky like a skyscraper, was the shuttle and the ugly steel fretwork of the attendant gantry. She stared out through the humid air, not quite able to believe that her beloved husband was strapped into a seat atop that strange, rather alien contraption.

  The countdown to liftoff had started and was well along. Jillian could imagine the voice. “T-minus 14, 13, 12, 11…”

  Suddenly Jillian felt a chill and she wrapped her arms around herself. She trembled slightly.

  “Ten, ignition on. T-minus 9, 8, 7…”

  From far off came the sound of a low rumbling. “Six… Engine start…” The rumbling grew in intensity as the sound waves moved across the flat landscape.

  “Four, 3, 2, 1. Zero and liftoff…”

  The window in front of Jillian vibrated slightly as the sound ricocheted off the thin panes. She reached and touched the trembling glass, as if connecting herself to the sound connected her to the craft quivering on the horizon. It was as if the shuttle was anxious to be gone, desperate to shake off the bounds of tiresome gravity.

  Spencer spoke for the first time. “Mission Control, this is Victory. We have left the pad…” It was a remarkably prosaic way of saying that tons of volatile fuel were burning up, pushing another huge hunk of metal into the sky.

  “Roger that, Victory,” Mission Control responded. “You are go for throttle up…

  “Mission Control,” Spencer answered, “we have throttle up. It is a fine day for flying, Houston…”

  Jillian watched as the shuttle emerged from the vast blizzard of smoke, its snub nose pointed straight toward the sky. No matter how many times Jillian had seen a launch, this great eruption of smoke and steel, she always felt that the module rose out of the dramatic upheaval slowly and tentatively, as if straining to make it into the sky like a weak fledgling new from the nest. It seemed to move so slowly that she half expected the entire contraption to fall over, sloping to one side like a tottering drunk, unable to stand the forces of staying upright for another second. She did not know she was holding her breath, but she was.

  Two minutes into the flight, the boosters were used up and separated from the craft. Whle they appeared to float gracefully away from the main body of the vessel, the separation was actually a gut-wrenching yank that no matter how many times Spencer felt it, it seemed as if the whole ship was being ripped apart. You never got used it.

  “Mission Control, we are standing by for SRB separation,” said Spencer, bracing himself for what came next.

  Even worse than that first separation, though, was the next phase of the flight which came a mere six minutes later. After about eight minut
es of flight the shuttle was shaken by a terrifying explosion, and the huge external tank separated from the main body of the vessel.

  “Separation confirmed,” said Spencer. The trim of the vessel changed dramatically. It seemed to have been shot out of a sling, picking up speed at a dramatic rate as it lost weight. “Houston, we are at eighteen thousand knots and accelerating.”

  The fire was blinding. The roaring of the engines deafening. The sky had changed in color, from dark blue, then pale, then darkness. Houston came up: “You are go for main engine shut-off.”

  Abruptly the overwhelming roar of the engines vanished and there was no sound. No sound at all. The silence was so complete and so sudden you could almost feel it.

  The silence was pierced for a moment or two as Alex Streck fired short burns from the shuttle’s pair of maneuvering engines. Those small blasts pushed the craft over the momentous hump, the amazing transition from earth to space.

  Spencer’s voice was conversational in tone, as if he had nothing more important to announce than what was for lunch. “We have main engine shut-off,” Spencer calmly informed Mission Control. “We are now in orbit…” Jillian spun the globe. The orb whirled around, the countries and the oceans blending together until the whole world seemed to be a multi-colored mass. Then she put her hand out and stopped it abruptly. She looked around the room and down at the bright faces of her second grade class. Twenty-four boys and girls stared back at her, each one hanging on her every word.

  “What do they have in Kansas?” Jillian asked. Instantly, there was a chorus of voices responding to her question.

  “Corn!”

  Jillian thought for a moment to think of another question. “And what do they have in… Georgia?”

  “Peaches! “the class answered instantly.

  Jillian jabbed a tiny portion of the globe. “And what do we have right here in Florida?” she asked.